Before I begin, I want to say that I love my son more than anything in world. However there are still some days...
Most of the time I am in full Mommy-mode. Then there are some days when I don't feel like it. I don't want to get out of the bed or I literally check the clock every 5 minutes counting down to Little Man's bedtime. I hate to admit it, but it's the truth. Some days I wish that I could go away and not have to worry about being a Mom. There are days when I want to go into stores by myself, and spend countless hours looking at things even if I don't have money to buy them- just being with my own thoughts. Or not even to have to think at all. There are some days when my mind doesn't want to function and I have to force myself to concentrate on things, simple things- like feeding CJ or changing his diaper. There are some days when I dread the norm, because I don't feel like spending an hour to get my toddler to take a nap that only last 30 minutes. I don't feel like cleaning up endless cups of spilled juice or picking goldfish crumbs out of the carpet. I just want to get away and not have to worry if Little Man is being taken care of. Some days I want to get into my car and drive, play the radio full blast listening to music that reminds me of days when I didn't have so many responsibilities.
Some days I just don't feel like it.
Hey Miranda,
ReplyDeleteDon't feel bad, that is normal thoughts for a mom as busy as you are. You don't have any time for yourself is the problem, but when you are my age and look back you would give anything to have those days over again, and know you did the right thing by your kid. Relax and have a Merry Christmas. Join a Mom's day out group and go and just have your day to yourself. Love you
I know what you mean! I hope you get some "you" time soon (even though it never seems like quite enough)...it does provide a little reprieve and helps you gear up for "mommy-mode" again :)
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